“A good heart”.
That’s the name they gave to her condition.
She was without a doubt the kindest person you may never meet, and the honesty in her words flowed like melted butter.
She didn’t kid herself into thinking that she could wish away the evils of the world, but she was hopeful enough to believe in the good in everyone.
That was her name.
And unlike the amber-coloured vessels in Chemistry, she didn’t hold any volatility within. If anything, she wore her heart on her sleeves.
“It’s a nice accessory” she responded every time a friend commented to that effect. “What I am trying to say is XYZ has no reason to lie to me. We are not even close enough for me to care”
Oh, Amber! This was the problem.
Reuben walked into your life in perfect order; saved you from an embarrassing situation, defended you a second time without knowing your first name and helped you meet an urgent need.
He was your Knight in shining armour, even if you claimed to not subscribe to clichés.
“Ruby, that was your pet name for him, would never lie to me” that was your defence every time someone pointed out a situation didn’t add up.
Every time he called you beautiful, you believed him.
Every time he promised to do better, you believed him.
Every time he said he loved you, you believed him.
Not because on your own you felt the need for a sense of validation, but because in your books all his goodness had crossed out his tiny flaws.
“What are humans without their flaws?” you jokingly ask.
You were right in believing Ruby, Dear Amber.
He did mean those things every time he said them to you.
He never intended to do you wrong. He got carried away and forgot to mention his engagement.
Time went by so fast and he didn’t get the chance to explain he was already taken.
He showed up on his wedding day asking you to elope with him, so that he can do right by you.
Good intentions never resolve the issues, Dear Reuben.
Amber hasn’t been out of her room in 3 weeks. We know she is not dead because we hear her singing. We know she is still sane because we hear her sobbing.